facebookish update.Jocephus wrote:how are you doing w/o booze? tempted?
way too early to make an overall assessment. and again, not really a normal situation for me, health-wise - with that other BS with my back&nerves going on.
My drinking was normally an end of the day chill with 1-3 beers (some high ABV though) . Maybe once a month I'd have some sort of occasion to have more on a weekend, to get into the groggy almost hungover state the next AM.
last night was the hardest. Trying to relax -help along a not-so-good movie "The Forest" w/ the kid, Sunday blues, managed to get some [expletive] done over the weekend, felt like a reward was needed. But I plodded thru without.
Main thing I notice on day 10 here -transferred lack of willpower-nothing crazy but I'm caving in on junk-snacks a bit more late at night. Also, when I drank, hunkering down to TV or movie stupor was a way to chill. This seems boring, lack patience for it - and I now end up reading something instead. knocked out a book that I had been languishing thru for months. Slightly feel better in the AM.
The big positive -and yep it is still early - (I'll try to avoid being facebooky update until the end now) - is that I am getting the feeling I didn't/don't really have a drinking problem. yeah, what it took for enjoyment purposes can creep and get skewed. Still have to watch it when I'm tired and run-down physically. but I got that largely under control a few years ago -then I had more occasions I associated with drinking - from just getting home from work, to being off on a weekday, to whenever I cooked anything, or watched anything on TV etc etc. That all wasn't really a problem, just made me tired and fat.
I plan on sticking this out for January. However, if an emergency came up like a friend/family member really needed someone to have a beer with - I'd have to make an exception.
Beer was and will be again, something I just enjoy. After hitting a re-set button.


